March 13th 2012, I wake up to a dream that my water had broken and low and behold it had. I roll out of bed went into the bathroom filled up the bathtub to calm my nerves that today would be the day Aaron and I would be placed with a new title of Mom and Dad. I called my mom to inform her that my water had broke but, I was going to stay at home as long as I could but the doctor told me I had to come into the hospital after 6 hours of home labor if that where to happen. God is good and allowed me to sleep from 4:35-7am. Aaron and I got up grabbed our bags and headed into the hospital. On our arrival to the hospital my contractions were mild and 7 minutes apart. Dr. Cousin's came in and checked me at 12:30 and I was 4 cm (as I already was the day before) and informed me that if we did not progress by 4pm we would have to start an induction. My world fell apart for a moment because of my HUGE fear of needles and with the word induction meant IV and needles.
An hour after finding out this news of a possible induction I started instant hard labor. Contractions came on hard and strong 1-2 minutes lasting 30 seconds to 1 minute long. To top it all off I had nothing but back labor. Back labor is the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. After moving from the bed to the ball to the bath tub the pain was so intense that I ended up back in bed on my hands and knees for 3 1/2 hours just breathing through every contraction and saying in my head "you can do this, you can do this, it will not last forever, it will all be over soon." This was my way of get through this intense pain. Along with my amazing husband who put pressure on my back and rubbed it with everyone that hit. After 1 1/2 hour of this, Jenny took over for the next 1 1/2hour. My doctor then came in and said "Ashley are you ready to push?" I said "yes please" and began pushing. I tried on my hands and knees for awhile and he just wasn't moving down. Then I tried the bar as a hung over the bar my whole body exhausted I pushed with what strength I had left. This was moving him down slowly. I then moved to laying on my back with my legs up, which any of you who have back labor knows this is the WORST position to be in with every contraction. After 1 1/2 hour- 2 hours of pushing and due to such intense pain in my back and a new pain caused by him crowning I gave a good last push and he came out head to toe with no pause.
What an amazing moment as I leaned back into my husbands arms, for he was sitting behind me holding me up as I pushed, I saw the tears of happiness fall down his cheek. I realized that we had done it and I started to cry. As I am looking at my baby in the Doctor's arms as my mom got ready to cut the cord, we say it snap in two all on its own. Dr. Cousins grabs the end of babies cord and grabbed the end of mine and says calmly to the nurses, " Give me a clamp please and take the baby." I was VERY impressed with my doctor and how she dealt with me and everything that popped up through my delivery.
But, little did I know my labor was not over. Due to bleeding my doctor was forced to get my placenta out as fast as she possible could. Which I must say is VERY painful. Pushing on my stomach and pulling pushing and pulling she pulled the placenta out. She then had to give me a shot in my leg to stop the bleeding, I did not feel it but it was more of a scare factor than anything. I then over came my fear with my mom and husband by my side...pinning me down saying you have to do this. :) As I feel her stitching me up my heart just sank to my toes of an overwhelming fear. But, it ended... and they brought us over our beautiful PERFECT son, Shep William Carr.
A feeling of love that I have never felt before came over me, a calmness, a joy, and a feeling of accomplishment filled my body as I looked into my sons eyes for the first time. Aaron and I are so blessed with a perfect little person. Oh how we love him!
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